Up then down
I was feeling good this morning. Positivity was oozing from my pores and the feeling stuck for quite a few hours. Then I was informed that the work I did for “the big project” had some problems. Now, I knew it wouldn’t be great because I have next to no clue as to what I’m doing, but I wasn’t ready to face it. So after that happened I felt like a big fat loser. I made the mistake of looking at the online classifieds to see what jobs might be out there. I should never look for a job when I’m feeling bad about myself as it just reinforces my feeling that I’m not qualified for anything, that I have the wrong kind of education, and basically the whole world is against me.
I know for sure that I need a degree in something other than dance. I’ve thought about marketing, but I wonder if I could feel good about getting people to buy things they don’t need. I know there’s more to it than that, and there are marketing people who do work for very honorable companies and organizations. If you’re in marketing and you read this, please don’t take offense. I have very few facts about your profession.
A degree that I’m seriously considering is a Masters in Instructional Technology. Back in the day, I created a podcast called The IT Help Podcast. It was part promotional but mostly tech support. I took documents from the IU Knowledge Base and translated them into short multimedia pieces for people who would rather learn in a more visual way. I’ve always felt I was doing something akin to instructional design. There’s a program here at IU that I would like to apply to.
In the meantime I’ll keep blogging, and I’ll keep trying to make a name for myself on this World Wide Web thing. I’m someone who’s supposed to be her own boss. The universe keeps giving me clues. I need to keep listening.