I can’t remember exactly when it was that I realized I forgot how to walk correctly. I don’t know that there is necessarily a “correct” way to walk, but a time came for me when walking didn’t feel natural. Now I know this was a symptom of my undiagnosed MS.
I looked for gait training resources on the internet. I picked up pointers from The Gait Guys, and Core Walking with Jonathan FitzGordon. I started to pay attention to the way my feet were striking the ground. I adjusted my posture. I tried to walk with my toes forward instead of turned out like a dancer. I thought about hip flexion, and arm swing, and hip rotation. All of this only served to make me more confused than ever. Trying to make your walk natural is probably the most unnatural thing you can do. It was for me.
Now that I have an MS diagnosis and I understand why my walk is a little weird, I’m not as worried about it. I still try to be mindful of posture and heel strike. I have a little bit of foot-drop on the left side, so I make an effort to dorsiflex to reduce the risk of tripping and falling. I guess it’s possible that my body and brain have made adjustments to overcome the neural miscommunication that MS causes.
That being said, I still feel self-conscious about the way I walk. I tell myself that people are not watching my walk and judging me on it, but I also feel that people must be watching and judging.
Nothing to do but take life one step at a time.