Tag: self

Lost

You took it for granted, didn’t you?

Well, now it’s gone.

Why won’t you move on?

Get a new thing.

Be different. Be still. Be silent.

Go inside and don’t look out.

Look in not out.

Digital collage

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I’ve been meaning to…

I went to see the Passion of Joan of Arc at the IU Cinema a few weeks ago. It’s a silent film made in 1928 and directed by Carl Theodor Dreyer. My good friend Jason Fickel accompanied the film on guitar. It was an artsy flick, and the accompaniment was fantastic. If I had written something upon returning home from the theater, I might have been able to offer a decent critique. I will say that I was inspired to keep making art and to learn more about Joan of Arc. I’ll need to get around to that.

Motion picture poster for The Passion of Joan of Arc
Motion picture poster for The Passion of Joan of Arc

The world is going mad, so my job is not to be afraid. I will not fear all of the things that the media warns me about. I’m a liberal kind of gal, but I’m not going to panic about the tax bill or the end of net neutrality. I won’t fear the racists either.

I’m coming to learn that I am eternal.  I’m not sure if my consciousness has always existed, but I think it can never end. When I was a child, I told my parents that I picked them before I arrived. I must have known that. It must be true.

Did you know that both Edison and Tesla separately worked on inventions that would allow them to communicate with the dead? There’s a book about it.  I learned about the book from an episode of Jim Harold’s Paranormal Podcast.  On the podcast, the book’s author talked about the competition between Tesla and Edison, and how industry bigwigs made sure Tesla’s inventions that wouldn’t make them money were quashed. Too bad Tesla was a racist.  Anyway, Tesla is said to have fared better than Edison in the talking to the dead department. I got the impression that Tesla created the first EVP machine, but there is no mention of him in the Wikipedia article.  Further investigation is warranted.

During the two weeks I have off,  I plan to get a lot done. I would like to get the “treadmill room” de-cluttered, but I’m not sure if that’s possible. I can do some cleaning. I will do some cleaning! I will blog, and cook, and make art, and do yoga, and overestimate the number of things I can do during this period. Thinking about it overwhelms me.

Don’t be afraid!!!!!

Also

I thought I might do a daily self-portrait digital art journaling type of thing. I did it once. I took a selfie and traced it in the Sketchclub app. I’m not sure it looks like me.

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Self-portrait with flower eye.

 

 

 

 

My Way

I have to find my own way. I really do.

I had a job interview today and it made me realize that I know what I really like to do. I like dealing with information. I like sharing content, mine and that of others. I like using the word “content,” even though it’s probably one of those overused buzzwords. I like writing blog posts. I like creating videos, and taking photos, and making visual art. I like being immersed in all of the neat stuff the world has to offer. When I say world, I mean the real world as well as the digital one.

I must find my own way, and I must do it now! How am I going to do it? I think I have a plan.
I’m gonna make a list of the things I want to write about in each of my blogs. I’ll attach a schedule to that list. Then, I will get to work.

Time is running out!

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Emerging

I decided to create a new blog and I’ve imported the posts from the old one so nothing is lost.  I decided to do this because the old blog started out as a way to cover technology topics and hopefully enhance my status at work. I was hoping I could be viewed as a writer in addition to being seen as the podcast and video person.

But I soon realized that I don’t want to write about technology. There’s just no passion in it for me.

Then, because the blog’s url involved the word technology I decided to look at alternate meanings for the word. It made sense and I called it Laura’s Technologies for Living, but the title didn’t resonate.

Today I found out that something I wrote for work was totally re-written before it was posted on the web so I have this feeling that I’ll never be taken seriously as a writer by my team. So now I write for me. I’ll write about the meaning my life has outside of my job. I’ll grow, I’ll learn, I’ll succeed, I’ll emerge.

This current blog will be about anything and everything that interests me. I’m a complex creature and I like to share and I hope to attract a few readers.

I tweeted today that I just don’t fit in anywhere and that I should stop trying. This is part of that.